New Art submits New printer/copier/scanner/swiss army knife/time machine...
those new printers come with everything nowadays even flux capacitors.
So yea... I gots me a nice little printer and can now scan my new art. Which is finally on here after well almost half a year gone by. My latest drawing is Brothers_fleshblood I made that a week ago.

Life for me has been Work work Work as usual but something happened yesterday. Something I thought I had already dealt with but just wouldn't go away. My ex-boyfriend whom 3 years ago told me after promising to return. Called me on the day he left to tell me that he was sorry but, he loved another woman and chose her over me...
3 years later I made myself stronger and better than I was then. He has been trying over the last 2 months to contact me and I've ignored ever advance. Be it snail mail or email he had NO RIGHT to speak to me after leaving me for someone else. Oh and to hear he had a kid to her too. Yea...um so why now was I so important?

Turns out she took the kid left him and he was alone. He was going through pictures and stuff and saw how happy he use to be with me and my family in my little town. So he wanted to apologize and start another life with me or something. After repeated attempts reaching me. He decided to just randomly show up on my front porch. Just so we could talk face to face. Yeah PsYcHo... You don't just randomly show up on someone's porch. Even if you think they might still live there that's just creepy.

I was upstairs in the bathroom of all places when my Mom tells me. "Tabitha you won't believe who is on our front porch." o_O "Um no clue Mom, a bit busy right now who is it?"
".....Eric" "Are you Sh*tting Me?! WTH is he doing here after 3 years? Un freakin believable!" So I tried to mentally prepare myself to meet the man whom crush my heart chewed it up and set it on fire years ago. I had already played this scenario in my head over and over before. I already knew what I wanted to say to him.

I came downstairs ripped the door open and slammed it behind me. Staring at him with cold eyes I growled at him "What makes you think you have the right to be here on My porch?!"
He meekly replied he couldn't get an answer from me so he came in person to apologize. "You think you deserved a reply from me after breaking your promise. Then to shove salt into my wounds you choose another woman over me! You have any idea how that made me feel?
You see how I am now I am Stronger I am Smart and I am Beautiful." He gave a smirk and said you have gotten stronger I'm proud of that. I snapped back "What are you proud of? I made MYSELF Stronger for Me. Not because of you Eric I am better because I made myself that way."

After having my say I asked what he planned to accomplish by being here. He had hoped I would forgive him and be friends. "HAH! Sure um yeah let me think about that" Taking a moment to leave him to his thoughts. I came back out after the break and told him straight to his face. "I want you to go home leave me and my family Alone! You decided 3 years ago what you wanted. So live with it! I want you to enjoy the life you chose. This will be one mistake you will never forget. You have no idea how much you hurt me NO IDEA! Slamming the door in his face I left him there.

I guess he cried the whole way back to the bus station or so says my brother. Screw Him! he killed whatever feelings I had choosing some other whore over me. I hope my image haunts him for the rest of his life.

I'm so much happier now in life than I was that time ago. I don't NEED someone to make me happy. It would be nice to have a boyfriend but if its gonna be more hassle than its worth, Screw it! I'd rather be an old lady living with my cats and art. I will NOT stand for my heart to be broken again!

I'm making a new list of goals for myself
1. Do more art I've been slacking Alot
2. Learn how to drive again (forgot after years of not trying I need license)
3. try my hardest to lose weight and get in shape
(gonna walk more more with my new MP3 player)

"I'll bet you'll remember me NOW
I am my own creation
I am self made
Destroyers I am I!"